Dear Father
I finish cooking for tomorrow’s Aidil Adha. Well the menu is daging rendang, ayam kari and sayur lodeh. But thats not what I want to post on this topic. I was just thinking about my arwah. This is the first raya haji that he is not be able to be with us. It feels kind of empty in the house. Usually for any raya, me adik beradik will line up like small kids, minta ampun sort of you know. But this time, I guess I really cant ask forgiveness from him anymore.
Some people said that I said too many sorries sometime, that it doesnt mean anything if I say it again one more time. Well, everytime I say sorry, I mean it. Even if I have to say it 1000 times in a day. Well as I am a human, the possibilities of making small mistakes is like Big. So let me say again to everybody, including my dearest father, that please forgive me for whatever bad things that I did before. I wish you are here with us together as a family again. You are always on our thoughts and prayers. Oh for your information, my arwah dad managed to did his Haji few years ago. It must be incredible experience and truly lasting till forever. Like people say, money dont last forever, but your good deeds does. So keep the good faith and spirit, may us all go to heaven one day.
I feel your loss
And sharing the pain
But life goes on
and amen to your doa
i’ll be beside u ..to recover your loss …